Seeking Jesus... Day 30 Mon. Oct. 1, 2012

    Today marks the final day of my 30 day quest to intentionally seek Jesus daily in my life. I am thankful that I made it 30 days and was able to post every single day. Granted though there were a couple of days where I didn't feel like I had anything to post, I still posted something and reflected upon the seemingly nothingness of the day. I wish I could tell you know I feel a huge difference and feel change in my life but I can't. I wish I could tell you that there have been some major life revelations over the last 30 days, but I can't. What I can say is that the past 30 days have been small daily reminders that Jesus is in my life working, one piece at a time. I guess I have come to that realization that is how Jesus works most of the time in our lives. Often times we expect these big miracles to occur daily in our life. Or maybe we have those mountain top experiences and then when we come down from that mountain, everyday life seems mundane. I would argue though that the small and simple everyday occurrences that Jesus has in our life are just as important if not more important than those mountain top experiences. But, unless we realize the work of Jesus in our life daily, then it will be for nothing.

   I have realized that there is a lot going on in my life lately. Almost too much. Seminary is overwhelming. There is always something to read, the reading assignments never end. Sometimes I can understand what I am reading while other times I struggle to get through the chapter. The soccer problems are never-ending. Once I get through all the email in my inbox or resolve a problem another one appears. There is always work to be done at church, meetings to attend services to plan, events to attend. It's in all this busyness and stress that I must take time to slow down and seek Jesus intentionally.

     One of the many things I miss about camp is the focus that I have while I'm at camp. While I'm at camp, there is only one job that I am focused on. All of my effort and energy is spent into that one job. That is something I love and miss about camp. Speaking of camp, today the applications opened for the 2013 summer. I have submitted application for this coming summer. For the past 4 summers I have served as a counselor. I have loved serving in that position every summer and have never regretted it. This summer though I want to move out of the counselor role and into another area of camp. Camp Ministry is a direction that I see God possibly calling me to full time. If I am to explore that calling more, I need to get experience in camp in areas other than being a counselor. I have submitted my application, now it's a waiting game. It all depends who returns from last summer to fill positions, what positions are open and who all applies for them. I am hopeful and prayerful that there will be a place at camp for me next summer while I am still trying to keep an open mind as to the direction that Jesus would lead me.

   As I close with this final post for this 30 day adventure I would leave with this final thought. "The more we seek Jesus, the more we find him. The more we find Him, the more we love Him." If we seek Jesus with all our heart, he will find us. He will find us in the mundane everyday life. He will find us when we are at the lows in our life and when we are on the mountian top expiriences. He will be with us all the way.

The more I seek you,
the more I find you.

The more I find you,
the more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet
drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath,
hear your heart beat

This love is so deep,
it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming 

"The More I seek You"-Kari Jobe